Threshold.

Everything and certainly everyone has a threshold.

We have always tried to be patient. We tried to be silent. We tried to keep our calm and we always have extended the boundary that we use to set apart from controlled anger to anxiety. No one wants to be mad and no one wants to be stressed. Letting your emotions get the best out of your good person is a sign of shrinkage to whatever you call healthy.

I think it is normal for every human to be reserved especially dealing with extroverted introvert individuals. Seduce me with your intelligence and let me enjoy your company alone for a long time but that's not always the case. We love to hold meaningful conversations but it will take time for us to open up and we choose the person we lower our guards down whom we no longer fear for any judgment. We may crave lots of activities but as a matter of fact, we prefer a less stimulating environment where we can be just comfortable with ourselves and the people we hang out with. We are often ecstatic it can be as obvious as the ocean but it is important to always take things slow for then we can be certain that we are not just jumping with all the impulses. We've tried to be as understanding in the hopes that we be also understood. We needed a comrade who could provide healthy mental support, especially on all occasions we overthink and overanalyze things. Though that is true, we do not want to be overwhelmed and get distracted by multiple unnecessary conversations so we prefer to just read between the lines. We don't want to go solo but we appreciate if our personal spaces are respected. We longed to spend quality time together but it's not about how many times where we go but how we treasure all the times we have been together. We wanted and needed the assurance that we have been fully accepted as the person that we are. We appreciate being asked to get clarified on things and we never wanted to be under any kind of assumptions. I guess that's what we are but we seldom find people who get the hang of it. If we do, for just a short period of time.

So we go back into our shells tirelessly overthinking and overanalyzing things so as not to get our energy consumed by it and so as not to hurt. Triggered by some unidentifiable factor I guess I just want to blow up and explode. Dear, everyone else had a threshold but I really don't want to hurt people so I'd rather climb another mountain or run longer miles. That way I can destress everything.