My first crush.

I admire a lot: anyone and anything with skill, talent, wisdom, strength, art, character, strong-will and just anything anyone carry along with so much pride. I could even admire a child in its high pitch crying. It is amazing and priceless to be able to learn the art of admiring everything. It gives us good vibes and puts us into ecstatic state in every experience no cannabis is needed . I admire a lot of people yet I was never into tagging one as a crush - very seldom. It takes that talented and successful, down to earth celebrity to be my crush and I celebrated the very thought of it for a long period of time.

Then I chanced to get twisted by faith and circumstance to know a twin of talents and skills exceedingly gorgeous, above and beyond the average flocks to be worthy of one's time and attention. I got hooked. I was the best stalker in time. Funny how Friendster (a social media hub before Facebook emerged) allowed me to stalk my crush in the most discreet and customized manner I enjoyed. Any day with a glimpse and a stalk to crush would be a delightful wrap up. I wish I had the same guts, the same skill, the same confidence and charisma. It was a cinema in the wide daylight. It was a beautiful side dish in my academic affairs.

Life is a vast of grand beauty like the ocean of beautiful pearls and starfishes alike. My first crush was a competitor in first grade whom I thought would hate me for being so competitive and keeping myself at the top. My first crush did not top my life long crush who I will have to put so much effort within to keep myself in sanity.

Life is surprising, ironic, beautiful as though I may not be close with crush back then, I got a chance to experience, celebrate and enjoy all the madness with the same crush at present. It is indeed the same ecstatic state, the only difference now is that all is laid out in the open, stalking is still stalking but the dilemma of getting caught is no longer there. LOL.

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