Count the cost

Life is travel and so is love. We always have to count the cost and see the road ahead. In fact, we should have the roadmap with us too. We should know when to slow down when the road gets bumpy and even bumpier, and when we have to call it a night rest. We should know when we can best enjoy a beautiful sunrise and when it's a tourist spree. We should know what to have with us always until we reach the end of the journey. Like all other relationships, committing your heart to someone you decided to grow with requires a lot of thoughtful considerations and not just impulses of infatuation. We have to count the cost and we have to pay them forward.

If we bring with us in our journey the baggage of the past like mistakes, betrayals, mistrust, and fear of losses, how can we stably journey together and enjoy one another?

If you are still caught by the mistakes of your past and the heartaches of your previous lover, please heal your wounds first. Do not go around seeking another person to nurse you and when you are finally healed, you consciously or unconsciously charge the present love of all the mistakes that the previous one has caused you. Saying it's unfair is an understatement. In fact, it's inhuman. The person has a heart too who longs to love and be loved fully in the context of personal expectations and perspective.

I don't deserve to always reserve madness or craziness then force myself in the boxes of my partner's heartaches and wounded past. I deserve to live and love like I expected to be. Crazy. Outspoken. Wild. Unexpected. Silent. Eccentric. I deserve to be able to experience just the fullness of it all without the judgment of past mistakes and past partners. I hate riding along and just waiting for the season to end. I hate wasting my time. I hate mediocrity. If you want to love me, love me just as I am and let me love you just as you are but do not judge me or look at me in the eye while thinking about the "what-if's and could've been" of your previous lover. I am who I am and I will never be anyone whom you think is like what I am. We all are unique and we all deserve a fresh perspective every time. In fact, every day. Can we do that?

Have you counted the cost you will have to pay? If you aren't ready, I'm telling you, end it now. Right now!